sometimes, i juz wish theres this something which i can succumb myself into, like another world or something. it may sound crazy but i would really want a li'l somewhere where i could go when i am troubled and it could make my problems evaporate.. yeah, like those in fantasies, in dreams...

*snap*

back to reality. i know, you know, there's no such thing. gawd, why am i even thinking about it?? i wonder if i have a mental problem. apparently, yes. there's so much i want to do, yet so many things i want to say.

there's this sudden thought....oh no, im becoming some useless crap! all i do these days is to laze around. i take 1 whole hour to decide if i should bathe. and i'm also becoming a food junkie. if i don't stop eating, im afraid i'll become not a useless crap, but a useless, fat, lump of meat. but then again, why should i care about being fat? i dont even have a boyfriend (too young) to look good for.. ah yes, the health problems. sigh. i seriously need to control myself. have to exercise. but, with the damn haze around, i'll probably end up with some breathing difficulty. even worse. seriously, these days, i eat even if im full. what the hell is wrong with me?????? someone please teach me how to spend time and how to treasure it! a month ago, im craving for time and would do anything just for it. n now? dont even ask. but this wont last long. i know it. for next year, i'll be busy as ever. new school life, new social life. so i have to cherish this peroid of time, i dont want to rot, i dont want to decay!!!! so, people, i have a new resolution: tresure time, make use of it. easy to write huh? but you know as the phrase goes " actions speak louder than word". man, that is so right.