WHY ARE THERE SO LITTLE PEOPLE ONLINE NOW?



anyway, i know i havent blogged a lot. its called laziness.



ive realised i should start not taking things for granted, notice how important a certain thing is until i lose it. i dont know, i was thinking a lot just now. stuff on my life, how everything is now. i wouldnt say everything sucks, but they dont exactly rock either. ive been feeling...like i want to do a lot of things. sure, i always say i want to do this or that, but i end up not doing it. i realised everyone has moved on, and everyone has the right to make their own choices. so i have no right to feel bummed because of this particular something. its her choice, its up to her. so who am i to think in this way?



when i think, i tell myself many things, on how im going to achieve certain things; how im going to do everything with such resolute; how im gonna change for the better. but the reality is different, it always is. there are always certain stuff that will affect you. sometimes i really feel disappointed in myself and there would be this whole short period of emo ness.



there are a lot of things i wish could be better but i do realise that not all of them can be achieved. so how? there are many times when i want to turn back the time. there are a whole load more of times i wish i could redo what i have done. but thats not gonna happen. life justs go on, time waits for no one. you know i wish i could be a stronger person, be less of a procrastinator, be more hardworking, be more optimistic. i mean, sometimes im really glad how i handle certain things but thats just cos ive always been lucky.



i wish i was more mature too, mentally.

i think jodi picoult makes you more mentally mature.



varsha says i look worried, like i want to run away or something but cant.

really?



choir; maybe i should put in effort in liking the CCA more. maybe i should take it more seiously. no, its not a maybe thing, its a have to. cos choir is something im gonna be stuck with till sec 4? yeah. and im really glad i have YJ and varsha in choir because they make me look forward to it! so from wednesday, choir is something i shall treat with pride. YEAH.

today ms wee showed us the chinese EOY components. i think i'll fail. i mean, just look at my standard. im always saying i have no hope in chinese maybe i should stop thinking in that way. maybe i should really put in effort in choir. i mean seriously. can i?

9justnice, I MISS YOU A FREAKING HELL LOAD.
hopefully this saturday will rock.
hopefully it will be fun.
hopefully we will skip the awkward part.
hopefully..

theres no homework today and ive been 3rd degree slacking . maybe i should stop? yes, after dinner. ive been wondering and realising how hardworking YJ is. shes making me feel bad.maybe i should too? i'll try.

the maths tution teacher is such a killer.

friday!