sometimes, i juz wish theres this something which i can succumb myself into, like another world or something. it may sound crazy but i would really want a li'l somewhere where i could go when i am troubled and it could make my problems evaporate.. yeah, like those in fantasies, in dreams...

*snap*

back to reality. i know, you know, there's no such thing. gawd, why am i even thinking about it?? i wonder if i have a mental problem. apparently, yes. there's so much i want to do, yet so many things i want to say.

there's this sudden thought....oh no, im becoming some useless crap! all i do these days is to laze around. i take 1 whole hour to decide if i should bathe. and i'm also becoming a food junkie. if i don't stop eating, im afraid i'll become not a useless crap, but a useless, fat, lump of meat. but then again, why should i care about being fat? i dont even have a boyfriend (too young) to look good for.. ah yes, the health problems. sigh. i seriously need to control myself. have to exercise. but, with the damn haze around, i'll probably end up with some breathing difficulty. even worse. seriously, these days, i eat even if im full. what the hell is wrong with me?????? someone please teach me how to spend time and how to treasure it! a month ago, im craving for time and would do anything just for it. n now? dont even ask. but this wont last long. i know it. for next year, i'll be busy as ever. new school life, new social life. so i have to cherish this peroid of time, i dont want to rot, i dont want to decay!!!! so, people, i have a new resolution: tresure time, make use of it. easy to write huh? but you know as the phrase goes " actions speak louder than word". man, that is so right.

whatever. i don't even know the reason for creating this but i thought perhaps i could try something...different coz its a boring friday afternoon here. bro's gone to swimming as usual. right, now what? i've been wanting to type so many things now my mind's all blank. well, TGIF! love fridays..no school tomorrow you see..

i've previously typed some really evil stuff in this space about a certain group of people in my class but i've deleted it...too mean. im a kind person so i know i can't write that. be a good girl. anyway, wassup. nothing, i guess.read a book called lulu dark can see through walls. pretty interesting...sigh, its the post psle period and the boredom is creeping in slowly.... sorry, not in the mood to blog already.... sheesh... hate the sudden mood swings.