im sad.

like S.A.D.

sigh. anyway my computer sucks. i cannot view other people's tagboard. SO LOUSY. i was sick today so went home and skipped choir! now i need an MC. but i didnt go to the doctor's. sigh.

FROM AWHILE BACK.

you realise all the photos has JULENE in it. its not because i have a certain obsession with her. its cos she wants to rip them. so im being nice. you're welcome julene.

okay back to being sad.

WHY ARE THERE SO LITTLE PEOPLE ONLINE NOW?



anyway, i know i havent blogged a lot. its called laziness.



ive realised i should start not taking things for granted, notice how important a certain thing is until i lose it. i dont know, i was thinking a lot just now. stuff on my life, how everything is now. i wouldnt say everything sucks, but they dont exactly rock either. ive been feeling...like i want to do a lot of things. sure, i always say i want to do this or that, but i end up not doing it. i realised everyone has moved on, and everyone has the right to make their own choices. so i have no right to feel bummed because of this particular something. its her choice, its up to her. so who am i to think in this way?



when i think, i tell myself many things, on how im going to achieve certain things; how im going to do everything with such resolute; how im gonna change for the better. but the reality is different, it always is. there are always certain stuff that will affect you. sometimes i really feel disappointed in myself and there would be this whole short period of emo ness.



there are a lot of things i wish could be better but i do realise that not all of them can be achieved. so how? there are many times when i want to turn back the time. there are a whole load more of times i wish i could redo what i have done. but thats not gonna happen. life justs go on, time waits for no one. you know i wish i could be a stronger person, be less of a procrastinator, be more hardworking, be more optimistic. i mean, sometimes im really glad how i handle certain things but thats just cos ive always been lucky.



i wish i was more mature too, mentally.

i think jodi picoult makes you more mentally mature.



varsha says i look worried, like i want to run away or something but cant.

really?



choir; maybe i should put in effort in liking the CCA more. maybe i should take it more seiously. no, its not a maybe thing, its a have to. cos choir is something im gonna be stuck with till sec 4? yeah. and im really glad i have YJ and varsha in choir because they make me look forward to it! so from wednesday, choir is something i shall treat with pride. YEAH.

today ms wee showed us the chinese EOY components. i think i'll fail. i mean, just look at my standard. im always saying i have no hope in chinese maybe i should stop thinking in that way. maybe i should really put in effort in choir. i mean seriously. can i?

9justnice, I MISS YOU A FREAKING HELL LOAD.
hopefully this saturday will rock.
hopefully it will be fun.
hopefully we will skip the awkward part.
hopefully..

theres no homework today and ive been 3rd degree slacking . maybe i should stop? yes, after dinner. ive been wondering and realising how hardworking YJ is. shes making me feel bad.maybe i should too? i'll try.

the maths tution teacher is such a killer.

friday!

hello.

im freaked. ARSH. BOOOSH.

words ending with sh are nice.

oh gosh. i didnt ask for it okay. and anyway...UGH.


seeriously. nevermind.


today mrs lowe was crazy. she said 1a is COCKY! oh and i know a few cocky people! like yuanjing, xue piao and yushu. yushu you shouldnt be not happy but honoured to see your name here! :D


my mood aint exactly good.

tralalaa.


CHELSEA SUCKS. period.

the penalty was totally an undeserved one. gahh. bias.

i have loads to talk about. seeing that i havent for more than a week. not talk, but blog.


lets start with yesterday! yesterday rocked a whole shit. yuanjing's partay was fun okayh. im glad i forced singyi to go. :D aaaahh. i dont feel like elaborating much. its a lot.


but one sentence to sum it up: it was fun!

loved everything that happened! all the people! yay.

thanks yuanjing! i love your relatives! they are all so cute! got zi wo jie shao one. and i was holding an empty plate then your relative took it and less than 5 seconds later it was piled up with a lot of food.


oh wait, now i remember. im supposed to be jealous of yuanjing.

so, YUANJING IM FREAKING JEALOUS OF YOU AND YOUR CAP!!!


oh but i had a picture with it! so thats at least something.



hmmm. d and t model. seriously, what crap is that? my idea's not even confirmed. like wth? i dont want to do the model because i think its crap but then soething tells me i have too. and shit. my KTBG is tomorrow and with my level of chinese, i should prepare to die!


and that reminds me of the chinese test. needless to say i didnt do very well. i think i gotta buck up for chinese but its very difficult to improve on a language unless you read. which i dont. i could, but i wouldnt understand anyway. thats sad. im a chinese you know. i must know chinese. actually i do know. just it isnt good. ):


ooh. finishing tenth circle which is a great book. thanks cat. you know im very afraid that i spoil your book. so everytime i see a crumpled or slightly folded part of the book i start to panick and wonder if i caused it. sorry if i did okay!


i cut my hair! layered more and chopped 2 inches off. but the difference doesnt seem great if i dont tie it.


liverpool vs chelsea tonight! yay. i'll watch and i hope the former wins! :D hopefully julene touched her poster 7 times or something. she'd better.

what else. nothing? okay then. its so late now i havent started on my d and t model. shucks.

SHIT I THINK MY COMPUTER HAS SOME STUPID VIRUS.



oh god.

i realise things are different now. the tables have turned.


oh gosh, i feel so low. im trying to do my homework; im struggling with prodesktop. and chinese. ):


someone just...just SHOOT ME okay.

i just passed my hundredth post. (:

that's pretty slow if you see when i started the blog.


anyway, today's national day was a blast. everyone went totally hyper. :D


i feel so ~. i dont know. i realise certain people arent how i perceive them to be. thats....bad, i guess. because today i realised not everyone is perfect, everyone gets their fair share of problems. and THEM, they are so....whatever. sometimes i really want to go WHATEVER right at their faces. i dont hate THEM but its like they are so...*insert word here*. gosh, i really dont know. its not hatred nor is it dislike i have for them, its a sort of a 'dont understand' kind of feeling.


what the heck. i dont even know what shit im babbling on about. maybe i do but i just dont know how to express them out.


anyway, i shall try to start on some homework today. i said TRY. i know its already ten but wth lah. you know 987 rocks because they play on the side of me so often! YAY. i want the muttons back! stop going on holidays already! this holiday's not gonna rock so much, im sure im gonna die of boredom. my dad's in germany now. thats UNFAIR okay.

SONGS I LIKE;
-ON THE SIDE OF ME
-DARK BLUE
-JENNY
-FACE DOWN
-THE GREAT ESCAPE
-YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL
-INTO OBLIVION
-TIME AFTER TIME
and 987 plays them!


UM. that was so random.


certain people change;
certain people are bitches;
certain people just suck;
certain people just rock;
AND CERTAIN PEOPLE ARE HOT!!!!!


SO HOTTTTTTTT. and interesting! TOO MUCH!

I BLOODY HATE MY COMPUTER

why cant this bleedy thing just work the way its supposed to?

its just SO GREAT to know i wont do well for maths too. and it really ROCKS to know that now i wont do well for both science and maths. for heaven's sake i didnt even finish the goddamn maths paper! like what the heck lah. plus, we MAY be getting back our science paper tomorrow and god knows how badly i'll do. but hopefully, just hopefully, the marks deducted would only be the ones i counted. NOTHING MORE. thank you very much.

that stupid tuition testpaper book got me tired. and worried. and panickhy. =.=

anyway i went to parkway today with varsha and singyi to get something. we spent so much time just to look for it and i was really hell tired. but at least its settled now. pasta mania's creamy chicken makes people really sick okay.


hmm. julene cut her hair. looks really.....INTERESTING.


and for once, i have no homework! :D

i realise i still have homework. i shall hurry do it later! yay. today is like the first time after SO LONG that im not the only one up. i know its only 10.42 lah. but on usual days i dont k now why my family sleeps DAMN early.


ooh. its so hot thus i perspire.

weird sentence.

i finally went home with yantian after god knows how long. :D i dont feel like replying the letters today so...i shant. SORRY. so dumb. i left my graph pad in school so i cannot do the maths. AW. have to rush it tomorrow. NAPFA test five stations tomorrow. EEEEEEEE. i cannot do pull ups suddenly. the ones in the fitness corner i mean. i need julene or yushu to push me up. gosh, so lousy can. shuttle run's gonna suck to! i take so long to pick up the block.

the new 987 schedule is okay lah. muttons is full of crap. but i wonder why this whole week no muttons to midnight. weird. dan and young show's a bit boring. on this side of me by corrine may's NICE!

RANDOM.

interesting!

AUGUST 11!

interesting-er!

why jay see ass?

i dont know!