Oh gosh. I'm like panicking big time now. :O

MALYSIA TOMORROW-SUNDAYYYY. (:

See you, 9jn sans phyllis and lucas.

Homework shall be on hold again. Marie supposed to do geography with me but now I think I have no time. Sigh.

To tuition and then the concert later. Tata.

I turned on the computer to do my geography homework on microsoft words and look what I'm doing now. Joke. Laugh. Hahaha. And then time decides to past so quickly I have to shut the computer down to have dinner now.

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Oh and aha, 4-1! Screw you Porto. (:

CANDIA JUST GO AND DO YOUR HOMEWORK, WILL YOU?

And I laugh, because I can't believe I was so stupid to even hope. Or believe that it could actually be otherwise. Just for once. I hate myself for being so naive okay. And you know what's the funniest thing? You don't even know that I'm referring to you. Let's laugh. Ha. Ha. Ha. I doubt you even come here nowadays.

Maybe I'm just being dumb or maybe I'm just making a big deal out of it but seriously, I can't not care. I thought it was enough but apparently, it wasn't. It can never be enough to you.

Actually I'm surprised at myself for reacting so childishly.

I'm not emo or anything okay!(:

((((((((:

See the smileys? Good.

Assisi was okay. The person thought my name was Singyi. My name is Candia. Singyi didn't go. So sad bad.

Homework should just shoot itself.

Screw homework. Let's just forget it.
Ha, I wish.

The weekends were nice. But today's a monday. Mondays, I don't like. Saturday was nice because I went to Orchard and got some more of those cute rings and I got a Kinokuniya card. And then at night the Thos came and we watched Liverpool win. Sunday was nice because we ended up going to Uncle Bernard's house and that was fun. Chicken chicken worm worm.

I shan't do homework today. Heck. I don't even know where my geography/history/chinese went. I better go get them. Somehow.

I need to stop moping about at home. I need to start baking or knitting to put my mind off things. No no no no. Cannot. That sounds like something my granmother would do. But it's quite fun.

But there's homework.

But no thanks.


I've got Snakehead! Yay. But I still have my library books to finish so I have to finish them first. This post is so stupid.

Tuition could be exciting later. (:

Its the first time I ever felt this lonely
I wish someone could cure this pain
Its funny when you think its gonna work out
Til you chose weed over me, you're so lame
I thought you were cool until the point
But up until the point you didnt call me
When you said you would
I finally figured out youre all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story
Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't
Youre too tough
You think you're loveless
Is that too much that I'm asking for?
I thought you'd come around when I ignored you
So I thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning'
Cause I'm not about to look at your face again
Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It wont be too late when the smoke clears'
Cause I, I am still here
But everytime I try to make you smile
You'd always grow up feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You stand like a stone
Alone in your zone
Is it too much that I'm asking for?


):

Hello people. I want to be a princess. You know why? Because I can act like a spoilt brat and get my own way and order people around. Won't that be the funnest?

I want to be a princess and I'm thirteen, not six. I have a problem.

But then I don't want that pink frilly glittery frock and the sparkly tiara. But I wouldn't mind the fairy godmother with her wishes.

Fan Fiction so fun!(:

Sometimes I feel like a total bitch and those are times when I hate myself.
Or when I think in really immature ways.
Or when I get jealous for the stupidest of reasons.
Or when I make a big deal out of the smallest things.
These are times when I really suck.


Burned is a nice book. And a sad one too. I really need to shut my mind sometimes and just stop thinking about anything at all. I need to shut off my mind. You know right now I'm having dumb thoughts that's making me feel screwed. I think my mind is like too bored it just has to come up with bloody things to think about.

Okay bye bye I shall go and play stupid games on the internet now.

It's been so long huh.(:

Well, it shows that I'm not addicted to the computer so that's pretty okay. You know what, I've got so many things to type but then I'm not in a blogging mood. Okay fine, i'll summarise

FRIDAY

Oh, choir practice. Yuanjing was being some stupid dumb crazy bananana. That sheep! Here's what she did.

• She made me chop the air with my hands with my eyes closed like some idiot.
• She got me lost.
• She made me make myself walk to the bus stop near her house.
• She tried to freak me out with some ghost piccolo-player.

Some more I think. But I can't remember. Bad memory.

SATURDAY

SINGYI'S BIRTHDAY! (: I'm glad Singyi liked my present and our surprise! Glad that she's happy.(: Everything was nice except they pushed me into the pool. And I got wet. Oh and my slipper floating in the middle of the pool. But it's fun.(: So that went well. Singyi's thirteen. Thirteen is nice!

After that I went to the Tho's. I must say that while I went there I was thinking about some stuffs and I got seriously pissed and sad and angry and so I put on this emo face and walked around.

Anyway, I didn't know it was Jazreel early sort-of birthday celebration too! But we made her a card in the end and that was okay.(: And guess what, I learnt how to play taiti/daidi/bigtwo/big2/royalflush/whatever you call it in the courtesy of Jia Min and Jia Hui. So now, I actually don't put stupid cards down and lose. Instead, I put the correct cards and I actually win.(:

Learning taiti is probably one of the biggest achievements this holidays thus far.

I was being a pig that day because i ate a lot and Jorene too and Jia Hui ate moutains and mountains of tofu. The tofu was nice and the fried rice and the cake. After a bit of Mahjong and more taiti and Wii we went back. Pretty late eleven-ish.

SUNDAY

I went to the library so now I have books to read so now I'm an okay person. My brother's friend tagged along. They are so childish and irritating and it really really pissed me off big time. So the whole day I was in this really really black mood and I had that pissed face on. But then I had B&Js and donuts from Donuts Factory so my mood did improve. But seriously I was so pissed I felt like I could've murdered people but that would land me in trouble so I didn't.

Today uh, was a normal day. And what's with me and phones left behind on buses. Tomorrow, I must do my homework and practise my piano till I die and beg for uh, a break.

Please ask me why I'm actually playing Duel Master with my brother.-.-

I hate Yuanjing for being in China.

Julene has her jersey. YAY. (:

Oh my I hate this song. It gives me some stupid feeling I hate. The singer's voice is so sickening. I hate it also that this song is actually quite nice and I don't like it.

Right now I'm being immature and having childish thoughts which makes me really unhappy and pushes me to the brink of depression. Which, is really really stupid. I should stop it.

My mum is trying to get on my nerves because she thinks I should stop using the computer.

Still, why won't this stupid song just end?

Stupid thoughts. Go. Away. Disappear. Bye bye. Ugh. I don't want to go for the ______.

You know something? I feel really screwed.

Please let me wake up tomorrow, feeling like its a Good Day.

I'm so full I could explode. -_____-My brother chose a flavour of B&Js that has marshmallows in it. Eew? I've finished Maximum Ride. It's so incomplete. But I like and that's why there's a fourth book coming up. And I just realied I've wasted my first third of my holidays and now I look at the neglected homework I feel so lSJKVNCxioasd. I. Need. To. Start. But heck, I don't even have ALL of them. So, screw it. For now. I shall push homework to the back of my mind till-I don't know when-when I feel like it. Yes. I shall wait till one day I realise the hell amount of homework and then I'll die. Yes.(:

All Akon songs get irritating.

The Game Plan is a nice movie. I went to watch it with Vic and SL today. :D


I'm in a alsighiosdxncmxz mood. Goodbye I shall go wiki Numbuh Four!



Screw it screw it screw it; just screw everything and let me wallow in misery or whatever emo shit I never fail come up with.

I must be mentally defective because I actually think Number Four from Codename Kids Next Door is HOT.

I like his hair. So cute.

I'm sad. I don't like eclipse's ending. It's so unsatisfying. But that's why there's going to be a fourth book.


I'm in a somewhere between emo and depressed mood. And now empty's playing on the radio. It's not helping the situation. Let me tell you why I'm depressed.

1. I've finished twilight, new moon and eclipse. Thus, no more Edward for a while.
2. Maximum Ride is becoming a sad story. And its ending.
3. Empty's playing on the radio.
4. I have piano tomorrow early in the morning.
5. My immortal, the song reminds me of Edward, Bella and Jacob.
6. Because you can't go. And I'm feigning nonchalance.
7. Someone is angry with me. I think.
8. My highly inflexible face muscles stubbornly do not want to smile.
9. Varsha's in India. And also about what YJ claims.
10. -to be filled-

I'm so childish. It's just a story. But its nice to get affected by them I think. Oh and check this out;

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/pdf/midnightsun_chapter1.pdf/

It's chapter one of twilight written in Edward's perspective! I think its gonna be published as a book sometime!(:

And Fang's blog in Maximum Ride actually exists! It's gonna be made into a movie too. So many nice books are going to be made into movies! Like, Twilight, Maximum Ride and My Sister's Keeper! I hope it shows in Singapore because I want to watch and sit on the cinema seat and cry.

Crying while watching movies is very fun.

Stupid Yuanjing actually thought eclipse's the second book. And the Erhu Lover's actually going to make out with her erhu for twenty three hours straight. I have faith in you, EL.

This is not helping. I'm still sad. But it's okay because it's nice to be sad sometimes. My mind is too screwed by stories. Oh, one thing to rejoice, we're not going to Assisi tomorrow. Why? Because we simply don't want to. Isn't that just so utterly hilarious and yay-ish. Wait when Jolene comes back. Ha. Ha. Oops.

My Immortal lyrics.

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all of my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

Because your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

But now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

And though you're still with me

I've been alone all alone

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

Really suitable for Bella/Edward when they left each other. For Jacob when Bella left.

I crave M&M cookies. I must ask my mum to get them. Excited for tomorrow!<3

Gosh I was just reading some twit's blog and I feel like laughing at them condescendingly. Seriously it just irks me to the fullest to see the way they type. it's just so sickening okay. It totally erases the respect I have for that person. Like eww, eww and EWW.




my discipline totally rocks. oh gosh this is so ridiculous. I'm using the computer with the lights off so that my parents would think I'm asleep. This is so silly I feel so silly. Who am I kidding? Using the computer in the dark? Ha. Ha. Ha.

Someone tell me to get my ass off the computer seat and like, Go To Bed now. No but cannot my hair is wet. But then I must off the lights and sit on my bed so my parents will think I'm asleep. If they wake up. So, faster!!



Nevermind, Candia has discipline. (:



yeah right.

I'm annoyed now because my hair is wet and I cannot sleep if not I'll get an atrocious headache on the morning tomorrow and I don't want that. I cannot blow my hair dry either because that will wake everyone up in my family although its only eleven. So, this sucks because I want to sleep so I can wake up early tomorrow for no particular reason because waking up early makes me happy.


So the point is, my hair is wet so I can't do that. Which also means I have to sit on my bed and stone until my hair dries.

Oh! I'm so irritated because I cannot see some people tagboards and I want to tag! But that's okay because I'll tag them here although its so weird to be tagging someone at your own blog. But still.


Singyi: happy birthday on saturday! professor! (((: i see my name! so cool! singyi you always not online.

Yuanjing: HUP HUP. generals dont play the erhu and MRTs are nothing to them. i warn you you better appear tomorrow!!!!!! and i don't see your blogskin change!

Victoria: eh! im not isolating you! we MUST go out okay! i want to watch BRATZ! and the course!((:


Anyway, I'm finishing eclipse now and that's so sad because I'm finishing the story and that is never a good thing. Maybe I will read slower, so I won't finish the story so soon! But the book's making me emo. Saturday's a special happy day for someone so yay. (((: Nothing much's happened recently so yeah, life's been KIND OF boring.


Varsha is in India, so sad! )): Come back quick, I'm waiting!(:


There's choir tomorrow, Assisi and piano on Thursday then chior again on Friday and tuition. Oh, I'm one hell of a busy woman.


Today I attempted to do my homework and failed miserably because I keep telling myself homework will start after the choir practice ends. And I wanted to read my book too. Right now I'm a quite-happy person because I went to Borders on Sunday and bought 3 books because there was some major discount! But it was so crowded and all the books were strewn all over and the place reminded me of a farm so that was not very nice. And this got me really pissed so I put on my pissed face and walked around. I think I saw Charmaine but she didn't see me. Then I wasn't so pissed anymore when I went for dinner so that was good.

My book-a-thon is ending soon. Sad. But I'll go to the library. Happy.


Yippee! I sound like a five year old. Yay! I want ice-cream.


That sounds so stupid. But nevermind. I hate the sudden bouts of emoness I feel. I must practise my piano more often and have a piano marathon like yuanjing except hers is an erhu one.


& the bubble wraps go POP POP POP! :p

I shall try to type with the first letter of each sentence capitalised so it will look professional. (:


Today, i saw many sets of 2-red-cars-in-a-row which means that today is a nice day.(: I saw yellow too, but thats okay because I'm not Christopher. I like that book. I've been reading a couple of nice good books and that makes me happy. I've read Twilight too which is wonderful and I want my Edward Cullen. I used to think it was pronounced as 'twee-light'. I also think it sounds better that way.

Today I went to school early to meet Varsha while Yuanjing was making out with her erhu. And then i became a spy for a while and spied and Singyi playing tennis who took a few seconds to react when i waved to her. Went to J8 with V for lunch and I realised i haven't been there for ages and it's boring now that the neoprint shop is removed. I fell while going down the stairs from the upper deck of bus 13 and got everyone staring. I literally fell all the way down. You know, like a slide. Embarrassing, much. The capsule station ate my dollar and I got half a pair of slippers from minitoons. We ate at pastamania and I had baked rice for the first time it was rice with cheese with ham with mushrooms with sausages and cheese and cheese. And cheese. Which got me terribly sick but I think i would try it again. Bubble tea got me sicker and Varsha had to help me finish it. I was so full i thought i could explode. I don't know why I'm bothering with the details of the day but I'm in A Blogging Mood which means I feel like blogging so you know what i mean.

In school I had a small cup of ice because I was feeling very hot and it got me even more pregnant than I was supposed to and this made climbing up the stairs and moving a penace. And Yuanjing came shortly and we didn't pass the dance but that was okay because that's why I'm in chior and not dance. (:

And Varsha got through! :D

After choir I had Invisible Birdshit on my shirt which i managed to clean off. Then we went to Macs for dinner where we became cadets on the way and Yuanjing owes me money because only people like her leave their wallets at home. So after that I went to my granparent's where I finished Twilight while everyone was yakking on about the imminent Thailand trip which I somehow have a lack of anticipation for.

Then we went home and thus I'm here. But I'm sasd because Vernon is not on the radio which makes Muttons To Midnights suck a little. Oh no, I really need an Edward Cullen. I think Stephenie Meyer is probably evil because she makes almost all the readers yearn for a EC when
its totally impossible.

Julene is probably making out with Brandon now whois supposedly hot. I think MTV is cool. Yushu thinks its porn.

Nice songs on radio now! (((:


My fridge needs a serious restock of ice cream because there are no more tubs of B & Js or Haagen Dasz or Cornetto I see which is bad because ice cream is useful during the holidays. That's only because I binge during the holidays and I reckon I will become Barney someday so that's why school's good because I can't eat as and when I want and there's jogging. I can't discipline myself to jog. Actually I know I can always force myself to. No, but jogging is meant to be a pleasure because its exercise and if you read Mind YOur Body you will see thyat the interview question about whether exercise is a pleasure or penace is always answered 'pleasure'. Wow long sentence. I shall jog this Sunday though. (;


Guilt hasnt caught up with me yet and i wonder if that's good and if I should forget about waiting for Guilt and just do my work but then there's this thing called Lazy which wants to be my best friend and well, I cannot reject it.

OMG!




8-0!!!!!!!




YAY!!!!!! :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

hello people.








im fine now TYVM! (: life's been a bore and singyi doesnt miss me!! AW. so sad right. okay but nevermind! we'll still see each other somehow! (:





julene's camp-sick, yushu's bored and bored and bored, boonhui is bored and lazy.




and oh look, this is actually peter crouch.

like how?

anyway. choir tomorrow.(:

i like theatrette cos its fun &@*()!OE.

& im almost too scared to want to know. ):

i feel so SHITTTTTTTTTTT. i really ought to start on my homework but i just cant seem to go to the ecampus page to print out the homework or dig out all that homework in my file playing hide and seek with me. BLAHHHHHHH.

WHY DID I HAVE TO BE SICK? ): so now im stuck at home while others are enjoying themselves at sentosa. )))))))))))))))))):



yesterday was the horriblest of horrible days.

whoa. i must say im surprised because i never expected it. i feel like laughing at you. like, HA HA HA.

im fed up, and fed up and fed up.







at what?

im looking at the elearning maths my face is like
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oh and chinese seems so fun.





what happened to my holiday fun huh!! and how come sec 1 got the most work!

im going to die. i just saw all the elearning work and im going to die okay. yes. SOMEONE KILL ME. SHOOT ME. maybe i should just jump off a building. eeeks and there's chinese. CHINESE. oh dear. oh dear me. and there's still the non-elearning homework. NONONOOOOO.


oh wow i love my holidays a lot. they rock dont you agree?