For the first time, New Year Countdown party's held at my house! Whee. And its gonna be a sleepover thing with 9justnice! I scream. So exciting. Except that I don't know if the Thos are coming. But still.

Last day of the year. Goodbye 2007. Goodbye bad memories. Disappear with the year.

2008. A new year, a new chance, a new beginning. Make the best out of it.

2007 didnt start off well. Its been a really eventful year. I hope it only gets better.

Wow how scary it gets as each year come and go. Today's supposed to be special. I shall try to make it special. The last day I'll ever be a Sec 1.

0-0. ):

Uhm. I feel so tired I could drop and sleep. This is so ironic. I can't sleep at night and then it has to be always in the day when I feel tired. -.-

Whatever.

I just came back from orchard with YJ. She bought an expensive pencil case and she is going to make her mum believe I got it for her for christmas. I let her because that would make me sound like a nice person. Varsha couldnt go out. ): Next time.

It is only until today that I realise Monday is the last day of the year. A bit slow of me, I know. This is making go into The Mood. Oh right. New year resolution. This is brainless because I don't ever follow them. But its fun, because its a once-a-year thing.

1. Study hard. Like damn hard. I'm going to be Ms Goody-two-shoes. I'm going to pay attention in every single lesson and do all my homework and copy notes. And then go home and study my ass off.
2. Lose weight. I'm going to exercise more and reduce my junk food intake.
3. Be more of a happy person. Stop getting into stupid moods.
4. Stop being so introverted.

This is too amusing to be continued. I realise this is really stupid. So uh, the end. End of resolutions '08.(:

JULENE JULENE JULENE JULENE JULENE! ( I have no freaking idea why this is so small. I made it big okay.)

She likes campbell soup.

Okay I'll continue some other time. Any more mentions? Damn shit, my font is red and big. Ah whatever. My parents are screaming for me to get off the com and go dont know where so what the hell. Im exagerating my spelling's screwed but i dont really care.

I'm really despo for a new blogskin but I can't find one that I like. Blah, gotta wake up early tomorrow for school.

Derby match later!

Ha, and there goes another late night. Whatever happened to my sleep-early-wake-up-early plan? :/

Yesterday we went to Orchard to look at the lights. However my brother was in his let's-piss-candia mood and he succeeded. So, wtf.

Christmas is over. Why is christmas so short? Tomorrow's boonhui's birthday!(:

I shall try to be positive about school. Yeah, I shall force my mind to look forward to school. School, wonderful school. Tests are wonderful. Lessons are the wonderfullest things! Homework rocks.

YEAH.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Ha, just to keep my blog from being outdated. Yesterday was great. But being a lazy bum, I'm not going to post all about it now. Later, maybe. Meanwhile, you can read boonhui's blog to to know. Ah, the laziness kicks in, real bad.

I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving
And I'm standing still

Hey, pretty soon 2007 gonna end. Christmas will arrive. Then New Year. Then 2008 comes, and we all go to school and its the beginning of the whole cycle again.


I got all the christmas presents on Wed with YJ. Now I need to find a way to pass the presents to them. (:

Went to Pulau Ubin yesterday. I didn't know I was going to walking so much. Being in a poncho sucks when you've gotta walk a lot. Everyone ended up at my house and we had quite an okay time. It's been so long. (:

I have a lot to say. But no, not now.

To run away from everything and hide from the world.

What the heck. Make up your mind Candia. It's either you like it, or you don't.

Lala. I'm the No. 1 procrastinator.

Somebody just kill me now. I should be dead. What could be good on other days is bad. I hate this situation I'm in now. Oh gosh don't I suck. Candia, you die die die.

zjhcnxb lzksjcnxol.

I am a depressed person.



Don't score, don't win. Simple as that. But, wtf.



I feel so overwhelmed suddenly. This is a really really packed week.



I am going to mope about today.

How could they!

This is who they are casting as Edward Cullen in the Twilight movie. Robert Pattinson. Fugly fugly fugly fugly fugly!!!!!!! This cannot be Edward okay! No no no no no because I say so.

YUSHU YUSHU YUSHU YUSHU!

There, you're mentioned. (: Still got colour eh!





Anyone else wants to be mentioned? (:

I'm coming up with a wish list with twin. She says we should blog while coming up with the list so I'm blogging. Okay so now I have something to post about.

THE WISHLIST! Green is me. Red is twin.

1. BABY POOH
2. HAVAIANAS
3. TAMAGOTCHI
4. WALLET
5. GOOD RESULTS
6. TOP TEN
7. WATER BOTTLE
8. SKINNY JEANS
9. LITTLE MISS SHIRTS
10. LITTLE MISS NICE SHIRT
11. PUSHPOP
12. HAIRCUT
13. SOFT TOY
14. SUNNIES
15. PHONE HOLDER
16. CHOCS
17. TO BE HARDWORKING
18. MY L'POOL CAP BACK!
19. HANDPHONE KEYCHAINS
20. GO ANFIELD
21. BALLET FLATS
22. SHOES
23. LOSE WEIGHT
24. TEES
25. BE HAPPY
26. REALLY HAVE TWIN TO SLEEPOVER
27. MORE PILLOWS TO SMACK TWIN
28. TRAMPOLINE TO GROW TALL

I just realised how greedy and materialistic I can get. :/ Nevermind. I shall add:

30. WORLD PEACE

Okay. Now I don't feel so disgusted at myself. (:

Hello world. I'm not in The Blogging Mood so, goodbye world. No, I don't mean it in the suicidal way, mind you.

Hoowee. I made my font bigger the way I like it. Blah blah blah.

I don't care what you think. You know what? I'm not going to care anymore from now on. I mean, like why should I? I don't freaking matter right. I'm just some lousy substitute. Nothing makes a difference.

Okay, maybe I'm making things sound more serious than they actually are but hey, sometimes it does feel that way.

If only you knew. You're blowing hot and cold all the time.

The sad thing is, I am absolutely sure the words in italics are going to be lies. It's just not so easy. I really wonder how long it will take for me to finally not bother. How long huh? I'm sick of it, I could, well I don't know what.

I need a good book now. Libraryyyyy.

Haven't been to Raymond's twice already. Eeks and now all the homework. :/ And there's also the school's.

Top 5 reasons why I look forward to school next year

1. I'll get to see my friends.
2. It's at a new place.
3. I'll see Joey!
4. Uh. I have two buses to take to school?
5. I become a senior.

Top 5 reasons why I don't want to go to school next year

1. Lessons, tests, homework.
2. It's at a new place.
3. No more slacking.
4. Because I become a senior.
5. I have to wake up early and take bus.

There. I think the don't-want-to-go-to-school part is stronger. /: I'm so used to slacking school seems like something opposite of my current lifestyle. Sucks the more I think of it. Christmas coming soon. It's depressing. Tick tick tick the clock goes and ugh ugh ugh I go. Okay that is a stupid sentence but whatever. I've never really thought about how fast time is unless people like my parents remind me(purposely) because its just so depressing and it gets me feeling really lousy and I'll start hating myself for being so unproductive. Heh. But the topic's kinda inevitable huh.

If Mr. Time exists, I would do anything to slow him down.

Or maybe if I'm Molly Moon and I could freeze time.

Come to think of it, that's a pretty good superpower to have. Time stopping. Cool eh? Then maybe I could get people to pay me to stop time on their behalf. I'll be filthy rich.(:

Oh gosh I'm so dumb.

hey, where'd you go?

The only reason why you're in such an emo mood, Candia, is because you are letting your mind wander. You know perfectly well that you're causing all these unhappiness for yourself. So, just stop it. Be happy. Be a happy person. Who cares about those stupid thoughts. Screw them.

If it were that easy.

I shall go and find a new blogskin. I hate how this blogskin make the posts on the same day merge. This post ends after the line.

Someone is becoming a twit. I'm so disgusted. :/

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Hello. Thailand was okay. Quite fun actually. I think I am actually missing it. Ha, I know I said I was reluctant to go. But the trip didn't start well though. I left my house for the airport feeling terribly demoralised and sad and angry and stupid and dumb at myself. I was hating myself all the way to the airport and then the plane and then Thailand and throughout the whole trip. And I still hate myself now. I can't believe I was so stupid to go and lose my cap. If it was any ordinary cap I wouldn't have minded much but its the Liverpool cap. I know I'm always losing my things but this is different okay. I'm pretty sure I left it on the bus we took the Malaysia And I'm just so stupid I only realised it before I left for Thailand. I'll hate myself when I think about it. This is so so so so so so so stupid and typical of me. I need to stop losing my things now but the thing is, no matter how careful I try to be I end up losing my things still. That time I went to Japan and I lost my whole pouch with money and my ezlink card in it--that was bad enough. Don't ask me why I brought my ezlink card.


Anyway, I'm still pretty angry at myself.

And not finishing the homework I intended to got me hating myself more. And you should know by then I was in total emo mood ready to behead anyone who got in my way. My brother had to show me the book I lent him for the trip which I put in great effort to keep it in good-as-new condition spoilt and folded. I was really really angry okay. I know its just a stupid book but it was enough worsen my mood.


I just got myself in a black mood. Ugh.

We spent every little time we could to play taiti. Playing with my dad and uncle was fun. And then uh, there was a lot of sight seeing and stuff and the long neck people a bit scary. Like giraffe. I remember I watched an episode of Guiness World Records then they showed the longest neck woman. I think I got a nightmare that night.

My mind is blank now. I can't really remember the trip so much. Oh, but I remember the nights were fun with my uncle and Noel. We shared a room and those nights watching TV to sleep and playing Taiti. (:

One of the days we went to this shopping mall and then me and Noel went into a Converse shop and we saw the cutest nicest shoes and they were like $27 only. That is very cheap for a Converse shoe. Then we took to try but it was a tad too big so we asked for our sizes but stupid lah. DON'T HAVE. How stupid is that. Who has so gigantic feet huh. I always wanted smaller feet but then now I want bigger okay. Then the both of us were sad yeah then we went a bit mad. So we toured the whole mall going into almost every shop to find a shirt with the word 'CRAZY' on it. We wanted a 'I'M CRAZY ABOUT THE SHOE' shirt but the closest we got was 'I'M CRAZY ABOUT SWEETS' and 'I JUST CRAZY ABOUT YOU'. Wanted to buy the latter but it wasn't very nice.

I ended up buying a Jack Purcell okay-looking converse shoe. $17.

In Chiangrai we stayed in this hotel called Little Duck. Laugh at the name. It's funny. But it's not so funny when it came to the room quality and stuff. The basin was freaking choked. And then there wasn't any shampoo. -_- Okay maybe I'm just kinda spoilt.

I went to the hotel foot massage. Hahaha.

Oh, one thing. Thai people a bit forgetful. I'm not being racist or what. I'm talking about those I encountered. In the hotel we asked for a bottle opener then I think they said coming in a while.

We waited the whole night.

Then the next day my uncle went down to scold the people. they apologised and apologised and they said they would sent someone to bring it up right away.

We waited the whole night.

It never came okay. And then on the flight home I asked for poker cards like I think five times then they finally gave me three decks. I think Noel asked seven times or more. On the flight back the plane had no TV. I got really bored. And the toilet--one had a toilet bowl choked; one the door couldnt lock. Like, wtf.

I got home angry again. I think maybe I'm just really short-tempered.

Tsk tsk tsk.

You know something, VIP lounges are damn the cool. My father brought me in. It was the shizz. You can see a lot of fat business man snoring with their pot bellies moving up and down.

I need to eat dinner. And this reminds me of the amount of weight I've put on. It's so sad. I need to starve myself. No cannot later I get anorexic. I shall eat in moderation.

If I continue to eat what I want, I may turn into Barney.

Not purple though. Without the green spots too. Barney is ugly.

I saw Mr. Hot Guy at the airport to Chiang Mai with his not-so-hot girlfriend. So hot. Didn't see him when I went back though. And that is very sad.

):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUCAS! 13 on the 13th!

Haha I'm back. I shall blog about my trip some other time.

Anyway, Marseille vs Liverpool 0-4!!

AHAHAHAHA.

But then I was freaking angry and pissed last night. I woke up at 3.45 to watch the match but my cable tv box just had to be all aijszVC with me. That bleedy thing went pop and then died and then my cable stuff got screwed so I couldnt even watch anything. Wtf. The best thing is that I can't watch the replay today either. Or even any tv at all.

Yuanjing you watch out. I not happy with you.

HEY, WHERE'S MY REFUGE?

It's 1am now and I have no idea why I'm reading some random person's blog. I want to sleep but my fingers are bored and they don't allow me to shut down the computer.

I'm amazed at how much people can change, both physically and mentally. I'm still in the mood it's not going away and I'm really ticked off.

I really love Somebody's Me by Enrique Iglesias. And Untitiled by Simple Plan. Old song, I know.

I want to go to some secluded corner and just disappear and shut everyone out. And not care about anything.

Oh no. It's just started raining again. It's been raining the whole day. A weather to match my mood. Ha. Ha.

I need a Jodi Picoult book now. Or Breaking Dawn. Or any James Patterson book. Or even Alex Rider. The eighth book or something. Snakehead reminded me why I thought Alex Rider was hot.

Fish. I just need a song or book or movie to cry over.

Happy songs are not helping.

I'm all sad and stuff for no particular reason. I think my mind got bored again or something and decided to be sad. My mind is screwed.

Liverpool rocks and I'm so random I'm practically typing whatever that comes to mind.

Edward Cullen and Torres are the love.

I want to watch a Liverpool match with them winning the other team by a huge huge margin.

I must stop this before it goes out of hand. I think what I should really do now is sleep or else I will have less than six hours of sleep and then I'll be really cranky tomorrow which is never good.

ARSH.

Thailand 7th to 11th. Somehow I'm not the least bit excited. I gotta wake up early tomorrow for Assisi. No, I don't want to go.

):

I hate getting squished on bus 156 and doing filing and such.

I want a new haircut. I'm sick of my fringe but my uncle can't find time. I'm in that kdsvhzncxlizs mood.

Candia is feeling introverted. Go away. I have piano tomorrow. What the fish.

I realise my font kinda small huh. I like big big fonts. I shall make it bigger. Meanwhile,

Fernando Torres. Hot is right. I like. I don't care you.

Marie these are the rings I was talking about. Cute stuff. The piglet and minnie are Silei's. <3

Go away, mood swing. I don't like you.

[edited] Stupid. I don't know how to make the font bigger. Stupid stupid stupid.

that's it? just like that? the end? ):

I'm playing neopets now. All my neopets are dying but I don't really care.



Malaysia trip was a mixture of fun, bouncing fishballs, long bus rides, songs, shit smells, shit water, murderer, taiti, adverts and such. I just cannot sleep on the bus. Hotel was like shit. The showering thing no shower head. So its like a water hose. What the fish. And then Joey and Jorene and Jazreel's room, there was someone's underwear in the cupboard. But then I love the trip. Thanks for making the trip so nice 9jn! <3



I'm like a damn lazy and unproductive piece of thing. I really hope I can finish my homework excluding elearning by thursday because I know that would not be possible. But chinese alone is zzzz.



Assisi today was okay and after that I went for lunch with Jolene at J8.



When I went home I was all sniffly and I kept sneezing and I used up a whole box of tissues and I almost plucked my whole nose out. Now I'm still sniffling and there's tissue everywhere and I feel like pulling my nose out. So irritating.



The wind is so strong. I'm cold.



I don't know why I haven't sleep. But nevermind I'm still going to wake up early tomorrow. No reason. I just don't like to wake up past 10. And it really pisses me off to be the last one to wake up. I'll get grumpy if I wake up past 10. I'm just weird like that.



I must practise my piano tomorrow if not I die on Thursday. I haven't had bubble tea for days. But I'm saving money. It's good to save money so when there's a rainy day, you'll still have money or whatever crap everyone says. Actually I'm not saving money I'm just too lazy to spend it.(:



I want a lot a lot a lot for Christmas. Ha. All my materialistic needs.



Uh, let's see. Torres still hot, Edward Cullen still hot, Numbuh 4 still hot, Kyle still hot. GOOD.



The twilight movie is coming out at 2010 thats so long because by then I may not be so excited anymore so now I must reread my book so I will remember the story and then go fanfiction and read all the twilight stuffs.



I like the new Paul Twohill song although I was never a fan of him.

I shall sleep now.


and I find myself thinking of you more and more.